the tension between theory and reality

sorry for my absence around here. the last couple of weeks in england have been so busy. my parents picked me up and we spent a few days in the lakes and then travelled back to germany together. 

at the moment i am on a holiday with my brother in north-east germany. i never been to this part of germany and it is just beautiful. we are staying in a village where around 400 people live. we are surrounded by fields and you can hear no cars, just birds. the only downside is my stupid hayfever. but it is nice to have time to relax and read books that are not related to my degree.

but it is also been weird. after all this business i suddenly have time again to think, to worry, to doubt. and again and again i am haunted by the fear about making wrong decisions about choosing the wrong path. i wonder what it is that i want in life, what it is that i am here for. 

and then i think about being humble. that it might not matter that much what i want. what decision i make. but it is not easy to let it all go. and i think of a preach by andrew wilson i listened to recently - and wonder if these worries about my life are not completely individualist. (by the way i can really recommend listening to it - you can do that here)

i am reading "tiny, beautiful things" by cheryl strayed at the moment (read it. seriously, it's amazing.) and one of the things she says is that we often already know our truth. that we have the answers. that deep inside we know what to do, but that often we are to afraid - 'cause the right thing isn't always the easiest.

i read a post by one of my favourite bloggers this morning, anna from little reminders of love. it encouraged me to put my trust in god's plan for my life and the fact that he has it all in his hands. 

and i also was reassured that being terrified is probably part of life. i wonder if it gets better when you get older. 

it's a new month, it's a new day

things i'm looking forward to this month

• going to the lake district with my parents
• celebrating my friend naomi's wedding
• travel to the eastern sea with my brother
• the beginning of summer. 

being done with my exams will give me a lot of free time, which i want to use purposefully. so here a few things i want to do this month:

• spend time with jesus. study his word. pray. enjoy his presence. 
• going raw for a couple of days a week, and choose wisely what i eat, so it's healthy for me and the environment (i just bought "crazy sexy kitchen" by kris carr - very inspirational!)
• read. (list of books i want to read coming up soon!) 

may the month of june be fabulous! have a great week!

ps: got my last exam today - keep your fingers crossed! 

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bulldays

colourful and tasty

i have been reading a lot about nutrition lately, the bad effects of sugar, how the pH of food affects our health and about good and bad carbs. i don't really know to what extent it is realistic and practical to be able to consider all this in my every day diet, but i do know that eating vegetables makes me feel very happy, especially if they come in many different colours! 

so yesterday i made some quinoa salad.

it's super easy, just cook the quinoa, add some oil and balsamic and then cut up tomatoes, cucumber,  spring onions, radish, olives and some peppermint. i added some feta cheese, just experiment and throw in whatever suits your fancy. 

enjoy!

best time of the year

one of my favourite things to do is writing. 
when i sit down with pen and paper, that is when all the chaos in my head suddenly makes sense. writing somehow makes me able to express what i think and feel and wonder. the things i experience become more real, deeper, when they are captured in ink. 
when i write regularly, i am happier and calmer. giving outlet to creativity somehow nourishes yet another idea and makes room for more inspiration.
sadly i often don't find the time in the midst of my everyday life to sit down and to wait for the words. 
but yesterday i wrote some haikus about spring, that i wanted to share with you. i love haikus. they are just perfect for a little revision break. 
one in english and one in german...  

again it is the season
that keeps my smiling for no reason
spring

ein regentropfen
lauer wind in meinem haar
englischer frühling

have a lovely, creative, inspiring day! 

dazzled by the sun