death wish

a couple of weeks ago some good friends introduced me to a rapper called lecrae. 
i spent the last couple of days listening to a lot of his music. 
one of his songs is called "gravity" in which lecrae raps about his yearning to leave this world and to be in heaven.

yeah, every time i think i'm flying
i'm just falling
so close to touching the sky
but gravity keeps pulling me back down
but i can't stay here forever
i want to go, ooh one day
i want to go
somewhere where there's no gravity

i think the wish to not be in this world, in this life anymore is familiar to many people. 
i often feel angry, desperate, helpless when i look at the injustices of this world, when i think about the fact that i will be disappointed over and over again by the people i love and that i will hurt them too. 
living can be tiring and we can come to a point where the prospect of death seems not so bad anymore.

but i think there is a big difference between the desire to not be alive and the desire of being in heaven.
it's the difference between yearning to be dead and yearning to be fully alive. 

in face of all the bad things we have to face every day, it's easy to resign, become numb and tired. 
but i believe that understanding eternity changes our life in the present as we can draw strength from the prospect that we live in the already but not yet, we can hold onto the promise that everything is in god's hands and that we are headed for an infinitely better future.