future and flamenco

i saw this band about a week ago. the ticket was an early birthday gift my dad gave me.

and as i sat there - being immersed and bewitched by the sounds that were surrounding me - it suddenly clicked.

in this moment it all made sense. suddenly i knew that finding one's way isn't so much about defining the final destination - but more about figuring out the next step - and than the next and then the next. going through doors and doors and doors - without really knowing what is behind.

but every step, every space after every door - in itself is important and full of meaning.

there it was. all the loose ends in my head came together. and i knew what i needed to do.
and i sighed  - with relief and gratitude.

and i realised - that the authour of the most beautiful, magical and most expressive language of all - music -is also the authour of my life. and this excites me beyond words.

what i know at twenty-three

even though i find it scary how quickly time passes, i do love birthdays. This one is particularly interesting. i am at a stage in my life where many things are undecided, many doors wide open, many questions unanswered.
but there are also some things that i do know.

at twenty-three i know...

-that living on your own is hard, sometimes lonely but also fun and liberating

-that being a grown up often means to suck it up, get up and show up (and to dress up, but that's the fun part)

-that even though equal rights for men and women have been established ages ago women still have to fight harder

-that music is one of the greatest gifts god gave to humanity and that almost nothing has as much healing power as folk bands

-that it is okay to sometimes want your mama to make everything okay even though you're strong and independent and grown up

-that feeling beautiful has little to do with how much you weigh or with someone telling you that you are

-that there's nothing sweeter and more exciting than forgiveness and grace that's new every day

-that good friends are worth more than gold.

some flowers i picked with my mum - oh beautiful country life!

hello autumn

it feels like last week was summer and this week is fall.

a week ago i still went swimming and today i took a walk wearing a jacket.

but nevertheless i am happy to welcome fall.

i love it so much when the air is cool and crisp and it smells so heavenly earthy - like rain and leaves and tea under a blanket and pumpkin pie.

autumn also represents a season of new beginnings for me. 

summer often is a time of great adventure, of learning, of making new experiences.

and so it feels like autumn always marked a new beginning, going back to school or university with new wisdom, new attitudes and new insights.

well, in this spirit of "newness" i was inspired to do some modifications around here as well.

as you may have noticed there are some new pages where you can find some info about myself, my church, and you'll find my posts on music, faith and my writing all in one place.

i hope i will be able to post on here more regularly, so be sure to stay tuned!

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